I'm currently in a time where I am going to be starting a new life. I am moving to Tulsa and I will be staying with a friend.I am still unsure of who exactly. Let me explain, for starters I plan on staying with this guy named Sven but if I am able to stay with another friend who I am interested in by the way..well i'd be staying with him hopefully. That is not too big of a deal obviously just a matter of choice. In the meantime though I am working on getting into school there and I have to wait until next Monday to find out if I can go or not. 
I am hoping it will work out, yeah I despise school but hey I should still go just in case my current writings don't get published anytime soon.

Just being on the safe side as far as employment goes. I will most likely be working at Barnes and Noble which by the way is where a Ex of mine is working. Oh nuh nobody is safe! Lol. In all seriousness though I was going to work there anyways before I decided to move and I would still like to be there. If that doesn't work I can always find a job elsewhere. 


Hmm...well you must be wondering more about the real me right? Let me explain something first.
To begin with my friend Matt has also been through a similar change. He's going back to his real self as I have.

We talked for a bit yesterday about things and what came of it you ask? Quite a bit. I am not going to give you any detail not much that is...let me just say that me and him are more alike then we thought. Who we really were inside isnt hidden now and we are going to have a blast as friends..maybe more you never know.

On a ending note I will admit that my feelings for him are stronger than I realized. Funny how the heart works....
A dark gothic styled romance filled with cuddling and honesty, not to mention occasional picnics in a graveyard under the stars and moon.
Many who may be reading this might say that I am purely acting this way due to my friends recent change to his old self.
Get over it, this is who I am, I was back to my old self before he was anyways. Do you think I could copy his behavior that way? Nope.
It's purely open and true how all of this has come into place. Life is always full of surprises and this was a big one for me.


oh and another thing. I'm also a spiritual lycanthrope (aka werewolf). I may not physically change but that doesnt mean I don't have intense experiences. What does that have to do with anything? ALOT. That part of me has been surpressed as well for no good reason.
Just something I thought I'd mention since it has a lot to do with my love for the dark. People can say darkness and evil are the same.
They are not the same, similar but not the same. Even if they were who cares? I'm comforted by the dark interests of mine, they keep me strong. Whether it is the dark itself or the graven loving feeling I feel inside when I am amongst darker things, all of them are comforting.


Like I said before. You have a problem with any of this oh well. I am still the silly crazy fun person but I can't hide the rest of myself anymore.